Time for change… and summer.
Wednesday, June 4th, 2008 
Here’s a big fat blueberry that reminds me of summer in Maine.
I had a funny thing happen to me a few weeks ago that I’m still thinking about. I had moved in closer to study a few pills that I had put into a glass and I looked long enough to see the unexpected. Sometimes looking closely at something can be a remarkable experience, other times everything is just as it should be, it’s expected. There are lots of metaphors here but I’m going to leave them alone. Some things just don’t stand up to close scrutiny, to macro photography. I try to remind myself to always look for and expect to find dust and to not look if I don’t want to see the dirt, there is always dirt.
Every once in a while I find myself saying things that I hadn’t planned to say and didn’t think through completely. These unexpected “truths” have caused me large amounts of pain later and I always regret saying them even though I can never take them back. I wish I could find a way to fix all my mistakes.